My Sony Ericsson Bluetooth

Walked over to KLCC for lunch after my church service (Menara TA which is just opposite KLCC) today. Wanted to check out baju shop "Fubu" but KLCC Informaation Counter told me that there's no "Fubu" here. LOL

Accidentally scrolled into Sony Ericsson shop. Accidentally asked about the bluetooth device for my Sony Ericsson S500i handphone. That shop assistant accidentally showed me one nice model and I accidentally bought it! RM150 gone!!!

#100 Is Bad News All Over!

OK, so...this is gonna be post #100...the 100th article I have here in this blog. So, it should be some good news and maybe some exciting announcement. But no...I have 2 very bad news and 1 "kinda bad news" to share here on posting #100.

I was shooting this press conference of Au-Yeung Jin's launch of his latest rap album entitled "ABC" at Q-Bar, Sunway Pyramid. To cut the long story short, my Nikon SB800 Speedlight flash unit failed!!! And it failed at the wrong time...during the exchange of momentos!!! Its the same symptoms I had with my already sold SB80DX...flash fires only small burst but the capacitor recharges fully as though it fired at 100% output. Basically, all pics came out under-exposed. Changed the batteries, same problem. Changed it to my D100...same problem. So, had no choice but to continue the rest of the shoot with my old trusty D100 with the pop-up flash lor!!! Have to sned the unit back into Nikon for repairs. Estimated repair cost is RM300-RM500! :-( Drove over to YL Camera here in Pudu Plaza...bought my new Nikon SB800...RM1,350.

His album cover. A pretty cool album, nice raps!

CMG team with Jin (first row, squatting, far right). Me is first row, squatting, far left

After that, went over to PGRM (in Cheras) for another event shoot...Elken's annual dinner. Direct Selling events are always very boring. Anyway, to cut the long story short again...my Nikon D2X failed!!! With a new SB800 attached to the D2X body...I found out that the body's hotshoe is loose and kinda gonna break away and fall off. So, with that loose hotshoe, the flash unit is nor properly locked onto the D2X body...and as such, many shots we fired without the flash firing!!! So, reverted back to my old trusty D100 with my new SB800 attached. Which means, on Monday, have to also send in my D2x for repairs!!!

And Monday...I am shooting the new year's countdown event at Bukit Bintang!!! Will have to do it with the D100. Argh...

A lil update on BabyKJ's Korea adventure. She has covered almost every corner of Seoul and has also mastered the skill of skiing (she spent two days at the ski resort). And tomorrow, she says she wants to make a solo trip to a province called Pusan, known for great scenaries. But its winter! And tomorrow's whether forecast says "bad weather" in Pusan. Which means, nothing to see (all parks will likely be closed) and no where to go. Travelling there cost a hefty RM300 on just transport alone! And her accomodation in Pusan... sigh!!!

Oh yes, I got this huge pimple popped out on my lower right cheek area. Maybe too much work and long late nites? Or maybe too much worrying and sleepless nites? Argh...it has been an extremely "long week"... really long.

Afraid To Die

Last nite, I thought I almost "died" of what might had been a "heart attack"? I had symptoms of extremely sharp "squeezing sensation" on my left chest (where the heart is) and like as though a sharp rod pierced through it. It was so painful that I had to lie down and rest for a while to let the pain subside.

And then, another symptom came...breathing problem. Every deep breathe I inhale in...my chest tightens up and sharp pain occurs. I could only take small sips of air without "stressing" my chest too much. And then the pain spread over to my right chest after a few hours.

Heart attack? Stress? Anxiety? Not enough rest? Mood? The fear of death came again. I had this "fear of death" since early this year...a feeling like as though I will be dying very soon, either by accident or a heart complication. At that moment, I realised I am not ready and not willing to die just yet. There are still many things I have not done, many words I have not said, many wishes and dreams not accomplished yet. And still...one utmost important duty I truly wish to fulfill.

There are also many things bothering my mind. Work, church and also my personal matters. Most of the issues can be easily solved over time but some...I really don't know how. Somehow I feel that I am not as happy a person as I used to be months ago. Its like there is a "missing piece of puzzle" in my life. And this last few days have been somewhat "disturbing"...like no peace and always "worrying". Have not been sleeping well too and when I am awake, my mind is not with me. My colleague says I look like a wordless zombie...always in the "dream" and "blur mode"! sigh...

I need a "clown" to cheer me up...

A Quickie

I have rushed out most of the things that needed to be rushed out. I am bored and I am now home alone.

Got my pictures printed. Dropped them off to client's place. Had tea with my designer to get some stationaries printed, i.e., Chinese New Year greeting cards, Babyboss Pictures stickers and the best of all...Babyboss Pictures Car Rear Windscreen Sticker (you know...those "University Of Michigan" kinda banner sticker you stick at your back windscreen of your car?). And really...if you want to have one for your car, please just drop me an email or call me and I will send you one...and be a "Babyboss supporter"!!!

Got home, rainned cats and dogs. Stayed home. Had my favourite Maggi Mee instant noodles for dinner. Watched Ocean's Twelve over DVD (for the 3rd time). Kinda interesting since I have already forgotten about the movie. Started with Terry Benedict (Andy Garcia) wanting back his $160million from Tess (Juli Roberts) and Danny (George Clooney). They pulled a heist and paid up Benedict. But that led my curiosity to now wanting to also watch Ocean's Eleven. And so I did. And I know fully understand why Benedict wants back his $160million.

Half way with Ocean's Twelve, managed to catch up with BabyKJ (on the phone) who is now having a great time at one of Korea's ski resort. Apparently, entrance fee cost about RM200+ per person and rental of the ski gears cost another RM150+!!! But you get to have fun from 8am till 11pm and ski till your knees drop! Temperature there is around -1.

My Perlis job (a huge mega event launch), apparently is coming to us again? I am not sure.

Oh ya ... got more TVXQ2007 concert pics at my photo gallery www.pbase.com/babybosspictures/tvxq2007_showtime

Its 4:30am now. I shall shower and hit the sack!

Guys, Read This!

Something I picked up from Facebook.

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at you with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around with her.
When a GIRL answers "I'm fine" after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.
When a GIRL stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying.
When a GIRL lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.
When a GIRL says "I love you" ... she means it.
When a GIRL says "I miss you" ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Girls, find a guy ... who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead first and not the lips.

Very true, don't you think so?

A Small Christmas Gathering

As usual, our annual Christmas gathering of my home cell group members, this year hosted by Auntie Esther. Yummy food with a turkey and all sorts of drinks. Brandon came with hi Xbox360 but somehow cant seem to the the unit properly installed onto Auntie Esther's huge 42" LCD TV (got video but no sound). I came out winner again for our annual Monopoly challenge. haha...

Some of my home cell group members (the rest are busy with the Xbox360)

The "Ginger Bread House" cake...was ripped into pieces within minutes!

Our "Korean girl"...Grace "Park"?

I love coffee. But to have great coffee mixed with brandy?

Hmm...something new but it tasted great.

Sheridan's Coffee Layered Liqueur

The bottle is separated into two compartments with two separate outlets. Interesting.

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2007

Babyboss Pictures wishes everyone the warmest Christmas wish. May you be greatly blessed this Christmas season...a time of giving and sharing. But most of all, its about experiencing God's love.

Have a great time, guys!

The Eagle Has Landed

Now we know what the TVXQ boys have to go through to bring us a good show here in KL. Anyway, just to tempt you guys again,...here are a few more pics from the recent TVXQ concert.

I Am Very Tired

I just feel like leaving this world and saying goodbye to everything I have and everything that is "having me". I am getting too tired to struggle and fight. I just want to sleep and never have to open my eyes again and to have to witness all the pains and sorrows in life.

I am really...tired. God, can I go? Let me breath my last breathe, and take me home...

I Am A Leo (28 July)

Found this from somewhere. Seem quite true, though not entire accurate but worth a read. Maybe you guys can drop your comments! haha...

LEO - The Lion
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Usually happy, but when unhappy tend to be grouchy and childish. A leo's problem becomes everyone's problem. Most Leos are very predictable and tend to be monotonous. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Very predictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

Hmm...great kisser?

I Found My Black Jeans!!!

Finally...really finally...after some 6 months of hunting high and low for a pair of black jeans that fits my beautiful ass...I finally found one today at 1 Utama!!! Its a beautiful pair of black "Camel Active" jeans. I don't have black jeans. And most importantly, it fits me...waist, hips, ass and thigh. And the price...very affordably within my budget. Awesome.

The last few months dring my search, either end up in issues like no size, price too high, color not black enough, design not nice, etc. But today, my first attempt...I got the jeans!!!

Now I need to search for one more pair of deep blue jeans. I had (and still have) an Emporio Armani deep blue jeans but the knee area...kinda starting to tear off. Some "itchy hands" just like to "play" with the loose threads there and make small tears every now and then!

I am so happy. :-)

TVXQ 2007 Concert Pics - Appetizers

TVXQ Concert "O" pictures...here are some for a start. More pics will be uploaded to my gallery site at www.pbase.com/babybosspictures/tvxq2007_showtime and my company website at http://www.babybosspictures.com/

Meanwhile, here are just some to start the ball rolling.

Arrogance

A few moments ago, someone very dear to me commented that I am an arrogant person. And that I am arrogant in many ways. And I am not always right.

Of course, this hurts a lot and people who never liked me would probably (if they are reading this blog) be agreeing and fully nodding their heads now. I have always consciously try to be a humble person, as humble as I can and never wanting this arrogance to surface at all. But to be told that I am arrogant in many ways, sets my mind into deep thinking and reflection of my own attitude and the way I say and do things.

I know I have improved a lot since some 10-odd years ago when I was really having a big head. But I didn't know that I am still so far away from being least arrogant. I guess I am not even close to being anything near "humility". I take all these comments very positively and constructively, and I will examine myself more strictly now.

A great sense of disappointment and failure lurks my mind now as I sit and reflect all those foolish things I have said and done. All that arrogance displayed when people have only nothing close to compliments to offer. I thought I worked hard enough to be better. I thought I was being very strict with my words. I thought I was consistently checking my own attitude for improvement. I thought I made a better person out of myself. But moments ago, I found out that I was wrong all these while. I am still an arrogant person in many ways.

Friends and readers, please accept my most sincere apologies if I have been in anyway offending and annoying you because of my inconsiderate arrogance. I seek your forgiveness. I want to be better.

If you can, please help me.

"While You Still Have It"

I opened this new post page...stared at it for the last 45mins or so...just don't know how to word my thoughts together. I know I am now very tired. But I also know that I am rather lost in words. I know how I feel but I don't know how to put them into words. Sigh.

But we should really treasure what we now have because we may never have it again. If there is something so special to me now...I would definitely treausre it well. I don't know when God will take it away from me. Like my previous post...everything can be just a reason or it can also be a season or maybe even a lifetime. Anything lifetime can also turn to be a reason or just... a season.

So, I will never know. No one will. But NOW I do know...who and what is important to me. It has never been about money and stuffs. Its about "being a part of something great and special".

(I am lost for words again after staring at my laptop screen for another 15 minutes!) But the title of this blog post seems so wrong..."While You Still Have It". Yes, if you are there to "take selfishly", then it will mean to take as much as you can while you still can. Its like robbery. But when you are there to share, then it's all about giving and giving sacrificially. And when someone gives me something "sacrificially"...I will commitedly treasure it forever and will not take it casually.

Sigh, its over an hour on this blog post...just don't know how to finish it. I'll leave it as it is now. Thanks for reading.

Babyboss In Action

Haha...I found this picture by accident on BabyKJ's Nikon D100. She was snapping for fun and I didn't know she got this pic of me. Taken during the recent S.H.E Concert.

Exposure was a lil under, so I had to convert it to Black & White and pulled up the expoure and allow the noise to saturate. Nice to see myself "in action".

Life Is A Journey

I was doing my TVXQ pics selection and editing and stuffs, and I was listening to this CD. The songs were great, slow and full of emotion. As I listened, my heart drifted. I began to remember lots of old stuffs, good and bad memories.

And then, I realised that I am not ready to leave this world. There are still too many things I have not accomplished yet. Not so much in terms of money or career but more on personal satisfaction and challenge. Once again, I am reminded to treasure every minute God gave me and every opportunity that comes into my life.

Life is short and very unpredictable. One may just pass away peacefully from old age while some, a tragic accident or a sickness. Life is a journey, never a destination. You will never "reach it". You just keep walking and accepting the things that comes along your path. What is good, what is bad? For without the bad, how would we know what good is. Life is never smooth sailing because if it was, then it would be a boring one!

To everyone out there...treasure your life, make the best out of it cause you've only got...one!

Babyboss Crew @ S.H.E Concert 2007

To all TVXQ fans...the concert pics are still in the process of being selected. Too many good shots, don't know which one to keep and which one to delete! And I am sure you guys would say, "Keep them ALL!!!". haha...

Anyway, we just covered S.H.E's live concert last Saturday. Obviously, concert pics are not ready yet. Nevertheless, here are some pics of our Babyboss crew in action at the stadium. More S.H.E concert pics on the way soon.

Final touches to the stage

The S.H.E cue sheet on stage front...all secrets revealed!!!

Babyboss Pictures Junior Photographers...Brian Lee and Sandra Wong

Someone needs to pee urgently?
Babyboss Pictures Associate Photographer, Caxton Chow...being his "usual self"...with girls!

Hmmm...Sandra's sister ah?

Prayers at backstage before the show...a customary practise in all Chinese concerts

Dinner time!!!

At the Operation Room backstage. They call themselves...TVXQ wor!!!

One of the many awesome shots...by Brian Lee

Aha...my beloved assistant dropped and broke my CF card reader!!!

At Post-Concert Celebration Party...Q-Bar, Sunway Pyramid.

The Babyboss Pictures Team

I Wish...

I went to sleep this morning when the sun was setting up and woke up just a while ago when the sun was setting down. My day is clearly upside down and not well. Woke up with a fierce pain on my left second finger and realise that it is now swallon...a deep cut from a stupid crab meal.

With 5 unread sms messages in my phone and 6 miss calls, I decided to pick up this 7th call that came in at around 6pm. But I didn't know what to say when the line got connected. Or maybe I have too much I want to say but didn't know where and how to start. Maybe I was far too hurt to bring my mind back together.

I wish none of these would have happened. I wish I didn't make that unnecessary trip after my concert shoot. I wish I didn't have to do that concert shoot at all. Because otherwise, I would have been in Sabah for another event. And that would have given me the holiday break that I have been longing for so desperately. And none of these would have happened and I wouldn't have had to go through the immense torture last night and made me teared my brains out!

I wish I can have back the good old times. I need that good old times. Please let me have them back.

Lonely Tear Drops

I have never teared so much in my entire life. To say no to the things you don't like is easy but to say the same no to something you like...is torturing. And if you had to say no because you cant say yes...is definitely heart breaking. No need to guess what happened, no need to ask what happened. I don't enjoy going through it and definitely don't enjoy sharing the experience. I don't like what's happening. Yes, I am extremely disappointed, furious, mad. Feeling defeated, lost and even cheated. And all these have to happen at the peak of my busy schedules with over 8,000 pictures (from my latest three concerts) to look through. I can't do it! I am giving up!!!

As I write now, surfing on McD's WiFi signals somewhere outside KL, watching the morning sun rise up, its something I have not seen for a long time. That reminds me of the beautiful creation God made. But somehow, I am not thrilled at all. This day isn't for me. It is not a day I look forward to. Neither is it a day I would enjoy going through. My heart is just far too heavy for anything now.

Spent the last 2 hours sleeping in my car before dropping by here at this McD. I am very tired. Its a long drive back. I don't feel like going back. I wanted to take a break, go for a holiday (as in just do nothing) at some quite and peaceful place...maybe a beach, just staring at the sunset every evening and letting the sea breeze sweep your skin. I am not sure if this is still an option for me.

I don't know what else to say though I know I have a million things to share. There are so many things I want to do but was never given enough chances. There are so many things I wish to know but was denied the various opportunities. I ask God, why are these things happening to me. He gave me answers not many people can accept.

I guess I will have to walk through this journey...ALONE.

A Reason, A Season & A Lifetime

Someone very very dear to me, wrote me this very beautiful article. And I think it is exceptionally well written and speaks tones of truths. I can confess that I have gone through everything the article says and still enjoying every moment in it.

"People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime."

Whether "reason", "season" or "lifetime"...to YOU who sent me this...thanks for being here with me and for me. Indeed, you are a reason, the season and also a lifetime. Thanks a million. I love you!